it’s just frustrating
i’m really angry at myself when i can’t accomplish the stuff that i’m assigned to do. For instance, if you were to ask me to blow a balloon and i screw up, i’d end up thinking of commiting suicide. And that’s just so damn irritating and frustrating.
Irritating because my mind never stops thinking. Frustrating because whenever i tell people that i wanna commit suicide…they reply me with a “Think of the people and things you’re gonna leave behind”. The person who kept my engine running despite the amount of maintenance required backstabbed me so hard that i just don’t know what to do.
It’s pretty shameful when people think of me as someone great. The truth is, we’re all equal! I just wanna slap the next person who comes to me and says that i’m better than him/her. Awwman, just shut the **** up! We’re all created equally. It’s just HOW you think of yourself. You’re better than me in certain areas!
Right. Back to myself. I keep hearing the saying, “Do the Best you can”. But wait a sec. Whenever i TRY my best and i flunk miserably…people always comment “walao he suck alot. never put in effort all these.” true true. i suck alot, but you gotta think about it for a moment. Putting effort into something is intangible, YOU JUST CAN’T SEE IT!!!!! and this infamous phrase only leads me to more thoughts of suicide. SUICIDE IS COMMON THESE DAYS BY THE WAY.
I show care for everyone but the moment you abuse it, you can just forget about you ever knowing me, cause i KNOW that YOU’RE GONNA FAIL if you’re never gonna do anything.
What’s worse? Being a failure for life? Or Being a Successor after a miserable dip? Whatever it is, i don’t care what you think bitch, but it’s up to you right after what you did to me.
Confused about what i’m talking about? Well yea. i am too. But i’ve got the full details of the story behind everything i’ve said.
Enough talking. I’m stressed. I’m really unhappy with the expectations from others. **** it. i’m gonna kill people. Virtually of course.
