You are looking at posts that were written in the month of May in the year 2011.
it’s bloody irritating when someone blames you for something you didn’t do. all the accusations, the threatening and all that: what dont you understand??!
i’ve been super open-minded and transparent. how much transparent do you want me to be?
yeah whatever, you’re perpetually right. let’s leave it that way alright?
the past few weeks have been really difficult for me. i’m midway into week 5 of school term and honestly, if there’s any more work…i’ll crumble. as much as i want to take up more commitments, i think fatigue is starting to catch up. i seek rest. i seek comfort.
there are certain problems that i wished. one problem from a year ago. i just need that distance. i need the time to sort out of my problems, my life.
no matter how good a person may seem from far, he or she has issues. in my dreams, i’m crying for help…but no one can hear my helpless cries
but i’m just glad that i’ve been efficient enough to clear problem after problem and work after work. being overloaded with work ain’t fun. i think my thought process is screwed. catch me off guard and i’d struggle to give you a firm and proper answer
i feel bad…but i used another way to get this person to hate me. i tried so many times and i hope it finally worked. i feel bad for doing it…but…i have no choice. a problem that lasts for four weeks…a year: it’s just too much. those were the good days, now it’s time for darker ones
i’ll make it through. oh yes i will.
i haven’t been blogging lately. it shows how busy i am 
year 3 has been an ass. things are much more complicated and tougher. we’re living more independent lives. gone are the days when our tutors and teachers chased us for our assignments and tutorials
but if there’s one thing that i’ve learnt over the past few years in my polytechnic life, it’s to challenge authority.
in the past, i used to respect hierarchies. everyone above me commanded the highest level of respect from me. i was even super careful in the way i spoke to them.
but as i (aged isn’t a good word) grew more mature, i started to realise that hierarchy is just a ladder of people with power; a position. after awhile, i came to a conclusion that they’re just like any other human beings.
really, think about it! what makes them so different from us?
it might sound offending, but i think challenging authority is a good phenomenon. the fact that we’re all human beings simply means we’re imperfect: we tend to make mistakes. and that’s when challenging the authority, challenging the status quo helps.
it helps to open a new view, a new opinion. in other words, you’re just telling them (the higher authority people) that your idea is much more better than theirs.
what’s wrong with that?
