challenging authority

i haven’t been blogging lately. it shows how busy i am year 3 has been an ass. things are much more complicated and tougher. we’re living more independent lives. gone are the days when our tutors and teachers chased us for our assignments and tutorials

but if there’s one thing that i’ve learnt over the past few years in my polytechnic life, it’s to challenge authority.

in the past, i used to respect hierarchies. everyone above me commanded the highest level of respect from me. i was even super careful in the way i spoke to them.

but as i (aged isn’t a good word) grew more mature, i started to realise that hierarchy is just a ladder of people with power; a position. after awhile, i came to a conclusion that they’re just like any other human beings.

really, think about it! what makes them so different from us?

it might sound offending, but i think challenging authority is a good phenomenon. the fact that we’re all human beings simply means we’re imperfect: we tend to make mistakes. and that’s when challenging the authority, challenging the status quo helps.

it helps to open a new view, a new opinion. in other words, you’re just telling them (the higher authority people) that your idea is much more better than theirs.

what’s wrong with that?

tough decisions »« internal change

internal change

i might not look different. neither do i sound different in my accent. maybe my command of the chinese language hasnt changed much.

but i do feel a difference after the china trip, believe it or not

i’ve learnt much during the trip, but nothing so much as what i’ve learnt and felt personally. interactions with my teachers and friends have helped me to realize who i really am

from an introvert background, you can learn to be another person: to speak up and change the community. that’s the path i went through. pressure crafted me into the person i am today

but there are certain things that pressure cannot change. and that’s the mistakes i made in the past. roughly one year ago, it was the beginning of the mistake that i stubbornly dwelled into. despite advise and obvious signs, i stubbornly ignored all of them.

i accept the consequences. i deserve them.

but there is one consequence that i was i could undo. i’m been working real hard to overturn it. but…i think my efforts aren’t bearing any fruits. maybe our time is over. i’m on the verge of giving up. i don’t know.

if you’re the one concerned, well…just know that what happened has happened. it has impacted us greatly and there is no turning back. thank you for the memories

as for you, i’m working hard to win your heart and soul. whatever it takes, i’ll try my very best

challenging authority »« china adventures – day 9

china adventures – day 9

the lack of updates shows that i haven’t been reaching the hotel on time to update this thing.

but hey! the taxi driver taught us something!

in china, because there is so many people and the traffic very chaotic throughout the day, there is a high chance of someone being knocked down by traffic; some even killed. however…since there’s so many chinese people…they don’t have the space/time to have a properly burial for these people

as such, they burn them on the streets!!!

and i saw one of them burning a body smack in the middle of the road in tianjin! gawd. if i choose to do overseas internship, i’d gladly avoid china for this reason

just keeding

internal change »« china adventures – day 5

china adventures – day 5

i’m exhausted and we need to wake up early to travel to tianjin tmrw

but this day, china is definitely taking a toll on me. the culture, the language: they are all obstacles for me. all i’m trying to do now is to simply keep my sanity intact.

china adventures – day 9 »« china adventures – day 4

china adventures – day 4

with facebook and twitter blocked in china, my only form of communication from me to you is via my blog. and if you’re reading this, YEP I’M SURVIVING CHINA (beijing) BABY!!!!!

with no access to facebook, i’m cant upload my photos that means i can’t upload any photos i took on my blog today. but i promise to when i come back!

anyway, today we visited 2 different places: jianguo hotel and 798 art zone! in jianguo hotel, i kinda saw westernization is occuring in china subtly. yet, the chinese people are able to preserve their culture strongly.

their culture is preserved in many ways, from their choice of furniture in the hotel to the furnishings in the lobby to the posters around the hotel. there is also a drama theatre that is super chinese-like. it’s kinda hard to explain in words…but step into the theatre and you know you’re in china.

reality check baby!

conveniently, there are two restaurants (chinese and western) in that hotel too! the layout is veryyyyyy different. the choice of carpeting…everything!

i’m simply amazed at how the chinese people are just able to preserve their culture

next, we went to the beijing 798 art zone! that place is basically an art scene. it’s where artists from around china (maybe around the world?) congregate in one area in the name of art. and boy oh boy, the place is soooo beautiful in its own way

there is graffiti drawn on every other wall: but that itself creates the environment. it sets the mood for what is to come. likewise, i cannot express the environment in thoughts and words; only through pictures

oh and, i even got a face drawing of myself! this guy drew a picture of me within minutes! i think it was less than 5? AND IT’S…okay not say damn nice but…HE IS DAMN TALENTED! within the same amount of time, i guess i’d only be able to manage stick figures

anyway, my learning point for the past few days is…LEARN CHINESE AND MASTER THE LANGUAGE AS WELL AS YOU CAN. i really regret for not appreciating the culture better, for not learning or mastering the language at all. i blame my primary 2 chinese teacher for that

if you’re that teacher…YOU’RE THE CAUSE OF MY HATRED FOR CHINESEEEEEEE. GRRRRR.

anyway, tmrw’s gonna be a longggg day. i’ll update my blog when i have the time! till then chinese-boy-that-doesnt-speak-fluent-chinese signing off!

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